Saturday, October 3, 2015

Beginning of October 2015

The itchy rash on my back has returned. I see the dermatologist on the 8th.

I have come to the conclusion that I can either be thin or be happy but, not both.  The My Fitness Pal site did help me lose a few pounds but, I have figured out that I have to religiously track every damn thing that goes in my mouth to do it.  It got me frustrated, angry, and depressed.  I couldn't stand to cook for my family because at the end of the day I was having to try and think of what I could cook that I could eat as well.  I missed baking.  I can't bake for the family and leave it alone.  I am just not wired for it. 

So I choose happy;  as happy as I can be while fat.  I won't wait for happy to come along after I lose weight. I am going to just enjoy what I can when I can.  So what if I can't hike as far as other people can.  I will go as far as I can and be thankful I got that far.  So I have to swim in shorts and a tee shirt; less sunburn that way anyway!  And, being fat, I float like a BOSS!

I will order clothes off the internet and have fun doing it.  I will enjoy makeup when I want to.  I will do my nails as I wish or wish not to.

I will play with my kids and go out with my friends.

I will eat, drink, exercise, play and be merry as I damn well please.

Sunday, September 13, 2015

Where did I leave off.....

It is now approaching the middle of September 2015.  It has been an eventful few weeks since my last post.   

On July 31 Jeff brought home a kitten that he had found on a job site.

We had her all checked out and tested and she tested clear of feline leukemia, feline HIV and ringworm.  Around the 20th of August, about a week after the ringworm test came back negative, we discovered in grand fashion that it was wrong.  Sammy, Jeff, Hops the dog, Ember the cat, Elise the kitten and I all broke out in ringworm lesions.  Ember the cat and I getting the worst of it.  Not only did I break out with three ringworm lesions, I also had a yeast infection and the result of the two at the same time was for my body to break out in hives all over my torso and arms.  I tried to clear it up with over the counter medicine but had no success, so I headed to the doctor.  She discovered the two infections (I thought it was ringworm all over) and prescribed me 5 days of a medicine that usually clears up a yeast infection in one day.  Apparently ringworm is tough stuff so she wanted to make sure it was good and dead.  It helped some but after the 5 days were up I was still itching like mad. I called her office on Friday before Labor Day and didn't get a call back.  I got the answering service and they got a message through to the doctor who prescribed some antihistamines for the itching.  They helped a lot but they are really powerful and make me drowsy so, I can only take them when I don't have to drive anywhere.  We have gotten the cats treated and have had them isolated and have treated the dog.  Tomorrow is the cats last treatment and they come out of isolation tomorrow.  All the people are clearing up or have cleared up.  I am still itching but clear of lesions.  I have a dermatologist appointment in October to find out more.

During the above time right about the same time the ringworm showed up I got some sort of stomach bug and spent a day feverish, nauseated and, with diarrhea.  Last Tuesday Sammy had it and now Jeff has had it since Friday night.  On top of the sore back he has from throwing his back out on Tuesday.

Friday night a "cold front" came through and dropped the temperatures down to something bearable.  Sammy was having some major cabin fever so I took him out to our favorite State Park, Lake Mineral Wells.  In the office as I paid the bill I overheard a coversation about a little spot that an old man was looking for.  He described a seating area made of stone with a stone table in the middle.  The park employee and I thought he was talking about the one at Shelter #3 pictured below.

Mineral Wells Screened Shelter #3
Photo by Dannybwoods on Panoramino.  I found this on Google Earth.

It wasn't the right one.  The old man was describing a completely different area of the park.  That is when a State Police officer/Park Ranger spoke up and said he knew the spot and would take us all to go see it, so off we went following the Ranger.

The spot was a little off the beaten path and for a reason the Ranger told us.  They no longer maintain the path to the spot.  The park doesn't mind if you use it but they want you to have to find it, in order to preserve it.  The one pictured above has been carved into and graffitied.  They don't want that happening to this one.  That is why I am not telling where it is.  I do have photos to prove we were there.

The old man who had been looking for it was happy to share the finding it with Sammy and me.  He said that it meant that a new generation would know it was there.

 After that we ate our lunch and headed to the beach to swim.

It was the perfect day for swimming.  Not too hot so the water wasn't nasty warm.  Not too cold so it wasn't chilling to get into.  Just warm enough that you didn't shiver too much when you got out.  The air smelled great, kind of like patchouli,  earthy like dirt and green like plants.  It was gorgeous.  The day got cut short though because shortly after taking these pictures of Sammy as he played after I left the water, my stomach started rockin' and rollin'.  I wasn't sure if it was just being too warm after eating lunch or if it was a warning shot for whatever was making Jeff so sick this weekend.  We stopped off at the park store, got some drinks, a patch and a pin before heading home.

The new pin is on the hat.  It is a similar design to the patch.  The old pin is on the table.  The new design does better depict the parks offerings.

I spent the rest of the evening watching the Texas A&M game and getting many touchdown kisses, although not as hearty ones as usual on gameday since Jeff isn't feeling well.

Thursday, August 13, 2015

Still hobbling along

I was looking back over some old posts and I saw the one Hobbelong Cassidy.  A very short update on that.  I am still hobbling along.  I have seen an Orthopedist and have been informed I have mild arthritis in that knee.  It was really riled up when I went in so she gave me a shot in the knee to clear up the inflammation.  It seems to have worked and as long as I keep on top of things with ibuprofen and Osteo-Bi-Flex and some turmeric I seem to not have too much problem.

And on that course I need to get up from this computer and get moving before I seize up like a rusty engine.

Summer Vacation is Almost Over Again

Well it is now mid August 2015.  School starts on the 24th.  Ryan will be starting his sophomore year of high school and Sammy is moving on from elementary school to the 6th grade center,  a whole new world for him.

This summer Ryan had to take summer school since he failed English class.  Looks like he passed as freshman English wasn't on his schedule.  He has spent the summer playing xbox and avoiding the rest of the family as much as he can by staying up late and sleeping in until noon or later.

Sammy and I went to Galveston for a couple of days this summer.  It was to make up for him not going on the class trip to San Antonio and Austin.  He has trouble dealing with crowds and hectic schedules so that trip would have been total sensory overload for him.  I am pretty sure I feel worse about him not going with the class than he does. 

He and I had a good time in Galveston.  We stayed at a little motel on the industrial (Harborside) side of town.  It was nothing fancy but it sure did smell fantastic.  We saw Moody Gardens Aquarium,  the Offshore Oil Rig museum, took a harbor site seeing and dolphin watch tour, rode the Bolivar Ferry boats and saw Bolivar lighthouse,  swam at Galveston Island State park twice, ate a marvelous dinner at Fisherman's Wharf, and watched the sunrise over the ocean out on the east end of the island.  On the way home we squeezed in a last minute trip to see the new Mammoth Site National Monument in Waco.  It is an paleontological dig outside of Waco.  There was a landslide that overtook a herd of mammoths and other animals thousands of years ago leaving behind some impressive fossilized remains.  Sammy got a stuffed mammoth at the gift shop.

Today is Davy day so we will be going out to pick up Davy and take him to lunch.  Sounds like today will be CiCi's Pizza.

About a week ago Jeff brought home a new kitten.  She is solid black and a feisty handfull, and not much bigger than a handfull.  We have named her Elise but, we mostly call her Leesy Kitty.

I have managed to lose some weight this year but it is slow going.  I have a hard time resisting the urge to eat out of boredom or for the pleasure of tasting things. I haven't been going to the gym like I should.  I may put out a search for a gym partner to meet with there.  Maybe I would enjoy it more and feel more motivated if I had a friend to go with.  Even someplace as chill as Planet Fitness can seem intimidating when I'm by my lonesome.

I am also dealing with some conflicting emotions lately.  I am missing hanging out with friends of mine while at the same time not wanting to socialize with anyone.  It makes absolutely no sense to me how I can feel both of those things at the same time.

To anyone that might be reading this, I apologize for it being so disjointed and it's staccato reading.  I haven't been writing much at all lately.  Facebook has been a killer on writing.  I have even gotten to the point of replying to posts with emojis and memes instead of words.  This is me trying to get back on the horse.  We'll see what happens.

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

Makeup Redux

Well I decided to play with the makeup again after watching a few contouring tutorials.  It worked out a little better this time.

After looking at the photos I can tell i need to go back and blend a couple of spots better but it is definitely better than last time.  I may actually get the hang of this yet.... it only too me two  I am also thinking I need to rethink my choice of eye shadow color.

I also tried out one of those bun making tools.  Seems to be working.  It will take some practice to get it done well, especially with hair the length of mine.

Nice to have my hair up off of my neck anyway.

Monday, May 18, 2015

Jeepers Creepers!

Today I was puttering around at the computer and I saw that Davy had left his camera out.  I uploaded his photos for him (he doesn't know how) and thought it would be fun to take a selfie.  Just goofin around.  My first reaction was Yikes!  I look like dookie.    (Also please ignore the stuff in the background.  This is upstairs in our "attic" area.)

So I decided that I needed to put on some makeup.

It got worse.....

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Properly horrified, I ran down stairs and washed that crap off, and tried just some mascara, eye liner, and a nude colored lip pencil.

The first thing I learned is that I need to REMEMBER to smile....I literally forget when I am taking the picture because I am trying to remember how to work the camera.

Second lesson learned....

 Take photo from slightly above to lessen the visibility of the double chin.

I also think I like the pictures with the glasses more than the ones without.

Lastly what the hell is up with the hair.  In the above ones I have it tied back with a scrunchie and there is all this wispy, wiry shit flying off everywhere.  The hair needs help.  I am thinking it may need professional help at this point.

I especially like this shot.  I look like I have a rooster comb  :\

I tried letting it down.  Believe it or not these are after bending over forward and fluffing up my hair.  Other than the wispy shit there is no volume whatsoever.

I not sure what to do with the hair.  I have grown it out so long that it reaches my backside now.  Cutting it seems scary but, something has to happen.

This fall Sammy starts 6th grade and will be able to ride the bus to and from school.  (Can't do it now because he goes to a campus that is out of our geographical "pyramid".)  With both boys having bus service I can start looking for work.  I am coming to realize that I should probably not look like crap if I want to find a decent office job.  Not looking like crap is easier said than done I am discovering.

Friday, April 10, 2015

♪♫♪♫Just Keep Swimming, Swimming Swimming♪♫♪♫

Well, I am back on the diet and exercise wagon.  Had a decent loss of about 3 pounds last week.  This week I kept up with keeping my calories in target range, went to the gym and gave it my best effort, and gained 1.6 pounds back.

The frustration is palpable in the air around me right now.  Why!  No this isn't a plateau... one doesn't plateau after only two weeks of dieting.  I am pretty sure three sets of eight reps of any of what I did at the gym is not going to put a pound of muscle on me.  I am so effing P.O.'ed at my body right now!

All I can do is keep going.  I must, in the immortal words of Dory the Blue Tang fish from "Finding Nemo", keep on swimming, swimming, swimming.